Being a blessing is a rewarding experience

Take joy in the fact that God's desires for your life are both steadfast and for your good. Consider the fact that every element of your life, no matter how serious or insignificant it may seem, has been ordered.

Romans 12:2 (NLT)
Then you will learn to know God’s will for you, which is good and pleasing and perfect.

It's time to (re)discover God's plan for your life. At first, you may find it challenging to take the necessary steps to realign your intents and dedication to discipleship. In the end, however, living in accord with God's will and way always makes for a more rewarding life.